Finally.... after around 4 years.... I'm back here... Well, actually i had a peep in my blog today and i realized its been really long.... and i have to pen down something to bring out (rather dig out!!) my writing skill....I don't know whether I v lost it through these years as the only writings i do now is like " I would like to bring to your attention the below issue" or " Please find the status of activities in the spreadsheet attached".... (Boring.....).. Thought would get a l'll bit creative ( have i lost it???)...
Hmm.... where do i start.... maybe a glance into flashback... (not black n white)....
Well.... my life's undergone a total change over the last few years....First on that was marriage. A true pucca Tam Brahm arranged marriage!!! All kancheepuram sarees in variance of colors glittering around me and me draped in the traditional "madisar"!!! People do say i am a pucca "Iyer maami" in that attire!!!! (Eew.... i look scary tho!!!)... It was a big change in my otherwise plain lonely life!!! Suddenly my life became like.... "thrissur pooram"!!! (:D).... Lots of people...New faces, new relations... Bala's( the better half....) family is like a sea of people.... I literally had a tough time learning who's who... Still i'm not sure of many of them... :D..
This phase of life was truly an experience of my life... I had a share of all feelings in them... love, care, respect, backstabs, the jabs... everything....Whatever I had dreamt of a perfect romantic married life just like in films were shelved from the very first day!!!There i learnt my first lesson....To accept hard an true facts of what is married life...
People do expect the lady of the house to be "ladylike" (natural).... She gets up early.. cooks good delicious food... does all household chores etc etc... Well, to be frank.. I'm really far from that!!!There started slight tensions...she is not doing anything... she sleeps so much... etc etc... Man.. my hubby had a tough time balancing that thou....(Hats off Bala)...
Life was going like that with bits of happiness, tensions when suddenly Bala's mom left all of us..That was kind of a bad shock for everyone....For bala.. my FIL...And for me????On a true note, me and her were not really hitting it great... But I had respect for her.. a lot even though i have failed to express them openly to her (I still remorse that...)..Even she never expressed things openly... We kind of loved each other secretly( hehe...)... I felt that voidity in my family without her... Even though the father is there, but still.... a mother's presence has its difference in the family....I learnt my second lesson...express your love to all before you lose the chance forever....
Love to me was in a different perspective before marriage. I only visualized the rosy side of them....But Bala has taught me... no.. showed me that you can love a person like this too...Even when there were lot of difficulties in my life, he was always there for me....he never left my hand even though i tried to pull away from him...I still remember those nasty fights I've had with him...I now realize that those were all because of the insecurity feeling i had... whether I would be left alone... But as time passed by, that got drastically reduced... And now, I can strongly say that I would never ever be alone again... ( yes, we dont fight much nowadays... :) )....There my third lesson.... You cannot shape up your love as you want....It grows in a most unexpected manner.. and when it does even though you realize its not what you saw it ends up as what you want....( oh my god... too much heavy na!!!)
That's it for a warmup... More on its way....
Hmm.... where do i start.... maybe a glance into flashback... (not black n white)....
Well.... my life's undergone a total change over the last few years....First on that was marriage. A true pucca Tam Brahm arranged marriage!!! All kancheepuram sarees in variance of colors glittering around me and me draped in the traditional "madisar"!!! People do say i am a pucca "Iyer maami" in that attire!!!! (Eew.... i look scary tho!!!)... It was a big change in my otherwise plain lonely life!!! Suddenly my life became like.... "thrissur pooram"!!! (:D).... Lots of people...New faces, new relations... Bala's( the better half....) family is like a sea of people.... I literally had a tough time learning who's who... Still i'm not sure of many of them... :D..
This phase of life was truly an experience of my life... I had a share of all feelings in them... love, care, respect, backstabs, the jabs... everything....Whatever I had dreamt of a perfect romantic married life just like in films were shelved from the very first day!!!There i learnt my first lesson....To accept hard an true facts of what is married life...
People do expect the lady of the house to be "ladylike" (natural).... She gets up early.. cooks good delicious food... does all household chores etc etc... Well, to be frank.. I'm really far from that!!!There started slight tensions...she is not doing anything... she sleeps so much... etc etc... Man.. my hubby had a tough time balancing that thou....(Hats off Bala)...
Life was going like that with bits of happiness, tensions when suddenly Bala's mom left all of us..That was kind of a bad shock for everyone....For bala.. my FIL...And for me????On a true note, me and her were not really hitting it great... But I had respect for her.. a lot even though i have failed to express them openly to her (I still remorse that...)..Even she never expressed things openly... We kind of loved each other secretly( hehe...)... I felt that voidity in my family without her... Even though the father is there, but still.... a mother's presence has its difference in the family....I learnt my second lesson...express your love to all before you lose the chance forever....
Love to me was in a different perspective before marriage. I only visualized the rosy side of them....But Bala has taught me... no.. showed me that you can love a person like this too...Even when there were lot of difficulties in my life, he was always there for me....he never left my hand even though i tried to pull away from him...I still remember those nasty fights I've had with him...I now realize that those were all because of the insecurity feeling i had... whether I would be left alone... But as time passed by, that got drastically reduced... And now, I can strongly say that I would never ever be alone again... ( yes, we dont fight much nowadays... :) )....There my third lesson.... You cannot shape up your love as you want....It grows in a most unexpected manner.. and when it does even though you realize its not what you saw it ends up as what you want....( oh my god... too much heavy na!!!)
That's it for a warmup... More on its way....
