Break ke Baad!!! :)

Finally.... after around 4 years.... I'm back here... Well, actually i had a peep in my blog today and i realized its been really long.... and i have to pen down something to bring out (rather dig out!!) my writing skill....I don't know whether I v lost it through these years as the only writings i do now is like " I would like to bring to your attention the below issue" or " Please find the status of activities in the spreadsheet attached".... (Boring.....).. Thought would get a l'll bit creative ( have i lost it???)...

Hmm.... where do i start.... maybe a glance into flashback... (not black n white)....
Well.... my life's undergone a total change over the last few years....First on that was marriage. A true pucca Tam Brahm arranged marriage!!! All kancheepuram sarees in variance of colors glittering around me and me draped in the traditional "madisar"!!! People do say i am a pucca "Iyer maami" in that attire!!!! (Eew.... i look scary tho!!!)... It was a big change in my otherwise plain lonely life!!! Suddenly my life became like.... "thrissur pooram"!!! (:D).... Lots of people...New faces, new relations... Bala's( the better half....) family is like a sea of people.... I literally had a tough time learning who's who... Still i'm not sure of many of them... :D..
This phase of life was truly an experience of my life... I had a share of all feelings in them... love, care, respect, backstabs, the jabs... everything....Whatever I had dreamt of a perfect romantic married life just like in films were shelved from the very first day!!!There i learnt my first lesson....To accept hard an true facts of what is married life...
People do expect the lady of the house to be "ladylike" (natural).... She gets up early.. cooks good delicious food... does all household chores etc etc... Well, to be frank.. I'm really far from that!!!There started slight tensions...she is not doing anything... she sleeps so much... etc etc... Man.. my hubby had a tough time balancing that thou....(Hats off Bala)...
Life was going like that with bits of happiness, tensions when suddenly Bala's mom left all of us..That was kind of a bad shock for everyone....For bala.. my FIL...And for me????On a true note, me and her were not really hitting it great... But I had respect for her.. a lot even though i have failed to express them openly to her (I still remorse that...)..Even she never expressed things openly... We kind of loved each other secretly( hehe...)... I felt that voidity in my family without her... Even though the father is there, but still.... a mother's presence has its difference in the family....I learnt my second lesson...express your love to all before you lose the chance forever....
Love to me was in a different perspective before marriage. I only visualized the rosy side of them....But Bala has taught me... no.. showed me that you can love a person like this too...Even when there were lot of difficulties in my life, he was always there for me....he never left my hand even though i tried to pull away from him...I still remember those nasty fights I've had with him...I now realize that those were all because of the insecurity feeling i had... whether I would be left alone... But as time passed by, that got drastically reduced... And now, I can strongly say that I would never ever be alone again... ( yes, we dont fight much nowadays... :) )....There my third lesson.... You cannot shape up your love as you want....It grows in a most unexpected manner.. and when it does even though you realize its not what you saw it ends up as what you want....( oh my god... too much heavy na!!!)

That's it for a warmup... More on its way....

run!!!! policeeeeee.....

This almost happened to me 2 weeks back..... it was one of those precious sundays....We ( me and my roomies) decided on a movie..... the last one 4 al f us ( 1 f dem got married off now...).. The movie was all crap... (Main aur Mrs Khanna.... shucks..... yackk)... the theatre wer we went happened to b on the East Coast Road on the way to Pondicherry... and we went in our respective bikes... 2 bikes, 4 young beautiful gals... (ahem.. ahem).... it was a complete freak out... adrenalines wer rushing high for al us.... On the way back, we decided to race along for the sheer passion of riding..... swish.... whooosh... the wind was blowing fast in my ears.... It was quite enjoying..... Suddenly, as a break to the joy, there came the policeman waving at us.... he stopped both the bikes.... and the rest of it.... dont ask... the atmosphere was smoking due to the sweet words of the policeman... "Enama overspeeda enga pora??"..blah blah... the rest i wasnt able to follow much....And my activa being a "KL" registeration in a "TN" state... that was enuf for him to make his pockets fat wit my money..... I got really tensed as tis was the first time i'm being caught by a police... he started demanding money from me.... and tat was the luckeist day of mine were i had not even a single penny in my purse... and i was standing in the middle of nowhere wer i had to drive 10 kms for the nearest ATM.... I thought everything was over and i was wondering wether being caught by police was written in my 'kundali'.... hehe... i dono wat made me say it but suddenly my mouth started talkin w/o me realising it..... I dono wat i said.. but the policeman kinda mellowed down and left me with a warning.... whew!!! that was quite a close escape and remains memorable.... Now whenever i go thru tat way, i automatically slow down and look out for tat uniformwala...... :) :)

Tour.......

recently had a chanc 2 visit singapor an malaysia..... a small trip wit family..... thot f pennin down my xperience here......
wel.. i startd off 4m here on 14th august by noon.... rchd delhi by evenin..... roamed around teh streets of ajmal khan road in delhi... one f the famous shoppers stop ter.... rangin 4m the 'local' 2 branded ones, u get evrythin..... sinc it was the day bfor independence day, security was quite tight....

the nxt day.ie.15th.... we went 2 chandigarh in the shatabdi express.... famed 4 the first planned city in india, it sticks true to da core.... roads without gutters an open drainages it was a pleasure drivin thru the roads ter..... xcept 4 the heat f the sun..... ther we visited the NEK CHAND rock garden.... a place built f waste materials lik tubelight pieces, broken bangles, broken pieces f toiletry... anythin an everythin thrown away as waste..... (paavam... angerkk oru thozhilillathe irunnappa undakiya oru garden... heheh... )... then we went 2 the rose garden.... i had 2 walk quite a few miles insid to find a rose tho..... tat was a total washout.... by evenin we returnd bak 2 delhi ....

the nxt day we had our flight 2 malaysia by midnight.... it was a 3 an half hr flight an we rchd malaysia by 17th noon.... chekd in at hotel grand seasons which was the tallest hotel in malaysia.... man, it was a luxury experience.....then, we went around searchin an findin out places in malaysia... oly 2 find tat a handful f ppl ter knew english..... :(... we had a chanc to get in ter aerotrain which is sumthin lik da maglev.... veryy fast....

the nxt day 18th we wer taken 4 a city tour which was somewat a washout.... nuthin much interestin.... xcept 4 the patronas towers which was truly breathtakin..... the twin towers, featured in the film DON, rose magnificiently to more than 80 stories.... tuk a few snaps ter.. but we dint 've tym 2 get inside the tower.... then at noon we went shoppin in teh famous CHINA TOWN wer yu get things at realy cheap prices.....

on 19th, we wer taken 4m the city 2 a farway plac located 6000 feet abov sea level.. 'twas cald GENTING HIGHLANDS.... truly breathtakin view 4m ter....and also it stood home 2 a very huge theme park... indoor an outdoor..... had some quality tym ter gettin in some really thrillin rides an gettin frozen 2 death.... unfortunately, we dint 've sweaters wit us....

20th we chekd out 4m hotel resort in genting to catch the flight to singapor.... 'twas jus a 1 hour journey.... we rchd s'gpor by noon...an evenin left out 2 catch the beauty f the place..... a very veryy clean an beautiful city wit the pride f 'vin everythin systematic, no wonder tis plc attracts tourists 4m al over the world.... most f the residents r 4m china an malaysia wit the no f indians rising steadily.... they 've a place calld LITTLE INDIA which has some indian shops rangin 4m restaurants, textile shops, electronic shops,a temple..... this is also home 2 the biggest shoppin centre ter... MUSTAFA centre.... wel, itz basically our big bazaar*infinity..... :) a shoppin mall..... prices r quite reasonable too....

on 21st we had a city tour which showed us the beauties f teh city.... the famous MERLION, the lion faced fish spittin out water, which is the national emblem f singapore...we also had a chance to visit a beer factory... TIGER BEER... which served a free drink also.... one f ma friends scolded me 4 not gettin him a bottle too..... :D.... 't was quite a nice city tour...
at noon we left 4 SENTOSA island which is one f the largest islands in singapor.... it was a place worth seein... ezp the show cald 'songs of the sea' which was basically a musical fountain show but done wit so much color an expertise that u can never mis tat.... ther we had a chance to c many such shows... an al f them had a message 2 deliver. tat was the beauty f the whole thing.....

on 22nd, mornin we visited the JURONG BIRD PARK... a large enclosure housing millions of varities of birds rangin 4m those twittering parrots to the deadly birds of prey..... one thing which was quite evident ws the bonding which the trainers an birds shared.... we had a chance 2 hear a parrot count 4m 1 to 10 an sing songs for us....
at night we went 4 the night safari which was more or less a journey into the wild jungle wher al animals wer left in ther natural habitat an behaved in their natural way..... saw a a veryyyyyyy huge python which was carried by 4 ppl.... an the funny part, a man 4m germany or sumwer, got the chance to let it curl around his neck lik a necktie..... man, it was a sight 2 b seen an he seemed to enjoy tat thoroughly..... :-\

on 23rd. we checkd out f the hotel to b bak home.... we had our journey bak in 2 phases... a transit stop at colombo... ther we wer chekd in a beachside hotel as our next flight 2 india was oly at nite 1 am.... it was a really coool hotel...
an after a lot f delays an hassles, we rchd home on 24th mornin 5 am....

had a wonderful tym 4 10 days meetin new ppl, visiting new places..... but in teh end, it felt good to b bak home...... coz nothin can replace tat feelin.....

Reality...... is it real????

The most common word in the english language... used by every1 in their daily lingo....

Multifaced,it all depends on how ppl take it in their life.....how real ppl can get!!!!

we al like to think & dream of nice an happy things...its innate that everything shud work like tick of a clock 4 us..... (not everything tho!!!!).... things which give us a sense of satisfaction are always welcomed.....a mental satisfaction always puts us in contenment.....

But woe!! Things r'nt da same always...... The same rosy picture cant b seen al the time...... something's gotta happen... turn the moment topsy turvy.... after all... whats life without challenges?????

That'z when reality comes into the scene.... It shows its ugly face out which seems the most disgusting ever seen so far..... somethin which we dont wish to face an accept.. its interesting 2 note tat the human nature has this innate behavior tat we dont wish 2 budge oursleves frm wer we find comfort....a change in sumthin which depends on the attitude of da person....... an reality is al about changes......

But when we try 2 luk in deep an discover the innate beauty in it,thats when we begin 2 face reality frm a different perspective...the ugliness slowly fades away..... the complacency which we show melts away an we move ahead... scalin more heights, reaching newer dimensions......

Personally i think, ever1 els is born wit this character.... its jus the time ppl tak 2 accept it tat differs... jus lik how we accept deaths.... an again, as i mentioned earlier,it again depends on one's attitude... an how u view it with a perspective..... and those who stay adamant in their decsion as to not 2 budge, r cowards!!!! who r afraid 2 accept the truth!!!

as the saying goes.... nothing can be changed by changing the face,but, everything can be changed by facing the change!!!!!

Right here Right Now!!!!!

I do realy think tat saying the right things at the right moment an right place is an art!!!! An art which i gotta learn.... :D!!!!

itz realy a difficult one to take...i find it realy hard to get used to it... i'm not undermining myself myself completely.. i can act accordingly once in a while.. but at times i'm completely lost.... some situations which r meant to b handled delicately goes off hand coz of me... hah,, no wonder ppl cal me a 'mandi'... ;)... hey hey! jus dont go the extremes,,, no major mishap has occured bcozz of me....hehe...
and i'm relay tryin hard to change....

Also, one thing i envy in some of the ppl i kno is their ability to talk things out.. sayin out things wit the correct words an effect.... sometimes these talkings do a lot good than written words....
for eg.. the act of consolation... it feels a lot better when ppl console u by talkin it out with u... i giv a special respect 4 them... i wish i cud do so... but 4 me, words come while i sit to pen down nythin... m more comfortable wit writings than speech...

al along the line,every1 has his/her own limitations....it al lies in how u utilise ur capabilities in the correct manner.....

sorry to 've bored u out wit this... wil come up wit interesting ones latr on.... ;)

Surf Excel hai naa!!!!!!

u mite b wondering watz the title abt..... naaa, i'm not into advertisin stuff.... 4get abt tat....the topic's a bit more serious.... jus tat i put a weird funny title..... sumthing shud b different naa????

You kno ther r some stains which u try 2 remove,but they remain ther intact.... as time goes by, they slowly fade away into jus a spot.....
Many things in our life r jus like this.... yea, it may differ.... incidents, moments for someone an 4 others it mite b someone in their life....

Mentioning abt teh first category.... incidents..... it mayb of various kinds.. some pleasant and mostly unpleasant..... love failures, deaths... it varies 4m person to person.... they stick 2 ur heart so hard tat its difficult to jus wash them away wid other thots....they bring tears,desperation,frustration tat u feel u'r completely drowned in despair.....

And one interestin fact is tat both categories r interrelated... in effect these incidents r brought by someone u kno or u dont....

It mite b tat someone u mite 've considered urs and put lotsa faith jus to c it shatter dwn.... it mite b ur friend who gave wid u al the time and suddenly turnin against u.....
hw painful this feeling is!!!! the pain of losing ur love is terrible but i think tat when u lose a friend ta loss is more.... when u witness how the bond of friendship loosens soo fast, u try to hold on tight but as it goes, a rope cant b tightened unless its two ends r held strongly..... all u can do is quietly let it go!!!!!

But nothin is static here....we al change ourselves.... time makes us change..... the desperation u felt some yrs bak may turn into jus unpleasant thots..... as i said earlier, the stain jus reduces to a spot!!!!!
And the times say it together........ 'SURF EXCEL HAI NAA!!!!' ..... :D

Yaadein.............

jus now ma friend said.... ' yaar,ther's jus 20 more days left 4 us'.....these words stuck me so hard..... can't believe tat we'r almost out of college to step into tat big, unruly and cruel world outside.... the gates r now fully open and we'r shown our way out into the big ocean outside....

my god!!!! just thinkin of tat makes me gulp in despair...... those golden moments in life...... nothin can replace them..... those class bunksss, proxies, canteen food, strikes, films, missed calls and sms durin class hours, last minute study, thundu vekkals..... then those crushes,affairs...... man, u cant get these days bak....
days of absolutely no responsibility..... carefree life,enjoying life to the maximum.....
for the guyss out there, those 'koodals' ,alambals at nights at someone's house or hostel,combined study...........( ;-) ... hehe..)
yea!!!! its one time when the strength and bond in relationships grow stronger..... frienship's attain new meaning..... u value ur friends an pals more.....
and the comin of freshers is a treat 4 the guys!!!! in search of 'nice' girls...... and those mock proposals and bouquets on valentines day!!!! ohh.... how exciting!!!
and when january comes, itz the time 4 intercollegiate fests!!!! those tensions durin those days, sleepless nights and after all, the feeling of happiness an contenment when everything goes off well as planned ('YO NIRVAAN!!!!! ').....

and to think we've to forgo these things and sit in front of a system cracking our heads from morn til nite(atleast 90% of them r gonna end up lik this!!!!)... a few of them preferrin higher studies wil get some of them bak.... but i don think itz gonna b so enjoyable lik tis...... the graduation level life is one of the best in one's life!!!!

so, enjoy ur last days guysss.... atleast u'll have some fond memories to think an laugh upon!!!!! and shed some tears too..... thinkin tat u wont get them bak!!!!!!!!!!